Sunday, March 22, 2009

Michael

How that man is hanging on We do not know. He has to weigh under 100 lbs now, he has had nothing to eat in over a month, When he growls and gets cranky they give him something soft and clear, but he gets horrible pain otherwise, He sleeps a lot now, and is starting to halucinate...seeing people walking in the fields. He fell yesterday on the way to the bathroom. Poor Baby.. I just dont like seeing him like this., Donna and I are going to down for a short bit tomorrow, but I wont stay long with these allergies. I dread going to his funeral. I dont go to funerals the whole family knows that, but this is one I guess I have to go to. having a younger sibling die like this really puts your own humanity right up there for you to look at, doesnt it? I dont like what I see. Guess I had better change some things before I go. but that wont be for another 30 years. when I am 93!

13 comments:

NJ said...

I've been wondering how your brother is doing and how you're holding up. In my family, there is only my brother and me. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose him. It's hard to stay strong when you see your brother in so much suffering. There is no easy way to get through this. But it helps to know that others deeply care.
Love,
Nancy

Herman said...

I wished I could find words for consolation but I can not right now…. , I only want you to know that I continue to follow Mike's journey by all this.

Sally said...

Take care, Mary Lou. Life is hard sometimes, my heart aches for all of you. God bless Mike and your family.

Donna said...

We All have things we need to change about ourselves sweetie...don't be to hard on yourself.
Praying for you all...(((HUG)))

Rain said...

I have been wondering how he was doing. He is sure having a hard ending. I hope he can soon let go and yes the funeral will be difficult. Our immediate family doesn't do them but I know it's important to many people. One more time to grieve :(

Brenda said...

I pray for peace for your family Miz Mary lou. I know you love Michael so very much.

Anji said...

I was wondering how he was too. I'm sorry you have to watch him suffer. If he is hallucinating it probably means he doesn't really know what's going on. Perhaps it's better that way, but more difficult for you. like Herman says, it's hard to find the right words.

Love to you all

jazzi said...

I guess he's a fighter, Mary Lou. Which isn't surprising, since he's your brother. I think you would put up the good fight, too. Doesn't make it easy for you because you can't help him, which is rough. (((Hugs)))

Susan said...

Just want you to know that I am thinking about you and the family and especially for Michael. May he find peace.

cassie-b said...

My prayers and best wishes to you and your family. This must be such a hard time for you all.

Cas

robin andrea said...

Thank you for updating us on Michael's condition. He has many people wishing him ease on his journey.

Dick said...

The father of a long time friend died yesterday and it is hitting Wes pretty hard. He lost his Mom a few years ago and two years ago his little sister died unexpectedly. He is realizing that he is now the last one of his immediate family.

Annie died unexpectedly. I don't think I would say that is easier on the survivors but you sure don't have a long time to dwell on the matter while they wile away. Maybe it is easier in some ways to have them go quickly, although really there is no good way. My prayers will be with you in this hard time.

Bobbie said...

Cancer is such a horrible disease and I hate to read that Michael is suffering so much. He must have a very strong heart. My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time. Prayers for Michael that his suffering will end.