Thursday, February 12, 2009

Mike

I went and spent the afternoon with Michael today. He is looking very weary. When I got there he had a visitor that he and I adore, so that was ok. I asked him if he had any other visitors and he said Yeah, but he could not remember who they were. I asked if he knew who Merrily was and he smiled and said yes, an angel. Which she is! and he knew who I was. Then Sumre came in and brought her dog, and I had Rocky so he was surrounded by fur babies. We sat and watched Mike nod off, and wake up, then Merrily left. Shortly there after, some one else from his church came over, and that is when the care taker came in and said Mike are you ready for your Nap? (a signal that there was too many non-family visitors for the day) Mike said yeah, so the other people left and Sumre and I sat and talked and watched Mike Nod off. He is very tired and looking very wasted now. He is not in pain, and that is the important thing.

After about 3 hours, I tip-toed up and told him I loved him and he opened one eye and nodded. I then told him I would see him later and I left. I told the Dr. Ann that I would not be there tomorrow for his party, but I would be back on Saturday, and that is when she told me that No! Mike had asked that there be no visitors other than Sherry on Saturday, as he wanted to spend the last Valentine's Day alone with her. (SNORF!!!) Galen knows this too, so we will respect those wishes and leave them alone. I will be there on Sunday with DOnna.

This is really HArd! I can keep up a good brave front, but when I am alone, I fall apart!

I think I will go to be3d early tonight, and just escape!

11 comments:

Brenda said...

Mike is so lucky to have his family with him now. I know this is so very, very, hard. God Bless.

Rain said...

That is just so hard. I wish I had words to help but know it's just heartbreaking. *hugs*

Carla said...

Bless your heart! I think you're doing great.

Sally said...

I have no words, Mary Lou except sending you lots of love.

Joan said...

Hang in there kiddo. Thinking of you always.

robin andrea said...

Sending good thoughts your way. Take care of yourself and rest up.

Dick said...

You can not do better for Mike than to let him know he is loved very much. It sounds like his Doc is handling pain management pretty well so that is a comfort for all.

The rest of the family needs to stick together. Loosing a loved one is far easier on that loved one than it is on those who are left. They, especially his wife & son, will be the ones who will need a lot of care. That is where a really close knit family will be like a prayer answered.

Joy Des Jardins said...

The hardest thing EVER sweetie...My husband went very quickly in hospice care. I'm praying for the same for you and your family. Sweet, painless peace for Mike...that's what I pray for Mary Lou. Stay strong. You are in my heart... Love, Joy

Maria said...

There are no words that can bring comfort, but know that many of us are holding you in our thoughts and sending love and hopefully strength your way.

Maria said...

There are no words that can bring comfort, but know that many of us are holding you in our thoughts and sending love and hopefully strength your way.

NJ said...

I haven't been blog walking for a while. Just not having that much time. I'm sorry to read about Mike now. I know how hard it is for you to hold up. When my husband was dying, I couldn't hold up if I tried to talk. I didn't want to cry with him all the time but it was really hard. You have my sympathy. Nancy